Monday, August 31, 2015

Pilihan Dalam Kehidupan~

Urat-urat tangan semakin jelas kelihatan,
Mata yang semakin membengkak,
Lopak-lopak di raut wajahnya,
Semua menandakan peningkatan usia.

Sepanjang tahun-tahun kehidupannya,
Pelbagai pilihan yang telah dibuatnya,
dan juga pilihan yang terpaksa akur dengannya,
Tidak kurang juga pilihan yang tiada pilihan lain.

Namun tidak diakui sepanjang masa yang telah berlalu itu,
Banyak pilihan yang telah melukai dan menghiris yang lain,
Cuma dengna harap belas yang kecil,
Moga segala dendam itu padam, dan ampunkan lah salah silap yang berlalu

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Hey Little Heart~

Looking back to the past,
The scenes that made this heart tremble,
The wonderful feelings, the happiness, the sadness, the good, and the bad.

8 years back, if I had to do work this late, I am not alone,
I have at least 1/10 of the 163 guys to keep me entertain,
or perhaps just that two guys i hold so dear to me,
either way, that companionship sailed further and further away,
and looking for a new ship called relation is not easy.

13 years back, it was me picking up others,
pushing them to succeed together,
and hey look, they are now scattered and im proud of those once little rascal,
don't know if they still recognize me though.

21 years back, it was just both of us in our own world,
telling others to respect our belief in a Christian dominated country,
sharing our possessions and laugh,
not to forget that little hamster that bit everyone else except me,
and that pizza we made,
but distance really did put us a part.

Remember that day, back in London?
Remember my face greeting you? Remember that time?
Just before departing back to your good friends?
It was not the smile, not the scenes, neither your action.
It was the warmth of having someone by my side.
And that made my heart tremble...


Sunday, March 16, 2014

What do I Want?

Times passes by and even blogs will get extinct
especially blogs like mine,
not organized, uninteresting and filled with personal stuffs
then again it always acts as a medium of expression
you dont get to express a lot in real life
especially coming from an egoistic person like me
i guess i am confused

I cant avoid this been read by anyone
and perhaps i do want some one to read this
and then comes the reaction
and hoping the reaction would be something i want

but a heart is always filled with games and puzzle
what does it really want
fame?
attention?
love?
acknowledgment?

ask yourself what in the end drives you
cz if you are me
at a point where things doesnt seem right
and you are faced with difficult decision
only one thing drives you through
what the heart truly desires

i can acknowledge myself
i have me loving myself and all the love i can get from my family
i can get attention by beeing the outgoing, noisy guy
i dont need fame cz if i do, i wld have been a model by now
so what do i want?
there's this one word that is not mentioned at all in this whole thing
find it and complete the missing link :)

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Sejarah Lama

Kerana aku hidup di atas kejayaan lama

Melihat situasi itu memberiku seribu satu kenangan
menggamit memori masa silam
tatkala aku masih kecil berdiri

bakat itu terletak pd tgn insan
yg diberikan kebolehan
kurniaan Allah SWT

rajinnya insan melakukan persiapan
backdrop, pentas, dan persembahan
owh indahnya saat tiada keraguan
tiada kerisauan :)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Dan Mulut yang Bisa Menutur~

Andai dilihat di sudut hati
nescaya ada sesuatu yg dirasai, difikirkan
betul atau salah, belum pasti
lantas insan yg terdetik di kalbunya
membuka mata pena
pena yang berbeza
tidak berdakwat tp bertinta
tidak tajam malah lembut menghias bahasa
sang mulut yg hebat berkata

Diam!!!
jika tidak tahu, diam
jika tidak berilmu, diam
jika khuatir, ragu-ragu, diam
diam!!!

sesunggunya diam itu lebih baik dr berkata-kata sebegini


Saturday, November 23, 2013

I Call Myself A Poison

I wear my specs and hide myself
my presence enough could spark problem
my presence enough could hurt a person
things might not seem so at first
but at one point you will understand
I, one who passionately do something
will always loose something in return

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Think and Aspire~

it's 11.19 pm as i start typing down. Its still early to some and to others it might already be late. but for sure, i am still awake reading n typing, reading n typing. how i wish i am always this hard-working. though i lack focus, i think as long as i do something n not just play candy crush, i am productive. many books waiting to be read on my shelf, especially the 'Socratic Epistemology'. And i look upon the dark skies, for the bright star. of how it shine of beauty even in a polluted city of London

Had i been this hard-working, there would be less procrastination. And i would have finished doing my work and be more knowledgeable. How i wish i would always be this way. but deep down, deep in the depth of my heart, a lil child is moaning, wanting to keep on enjoying playing games. Have i grown too fast?

As i continue reading this 50 page-report for my final year project. Oh to be clear, this is not my first paper. I'm not sure how many papers have i read but i think its more than 60 already. But i undestand not anything. it's because i tend to get too fed up with catching up with new things, i end up with words around my head without even understanding

Down almost to midnight, i am playing with my soul with these love songs accompanying my studies. People say just one year, but deep down i hope this fighting spirit remains forever...