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Human has this sense of accomplishment. And of course, coming with it, ENVY.

As we grow older, we seek, we discover, what is it in life that we look for. Why are we even living...especially those who suffers more than the other (or so they believe).

I fell into the trap having to see my colleagues, friends and family trying to achieve a lot. And definitely majority gains the earthly pleasure. More precisely, MONEY. But not to forget, there are those that achieve satisfaction in worshipping, or even family happiness.

This thought kept me alarmed, feeding into my desire and frustration. A sea of emotions. What exactly am I trying to achieve?

Then, i came to me...it's about creating value and satisfaction. Money from other people's pocket or effort is no satisfaction. It's the product. If I educate, my products are my student that will live on and create more products. Knowledge is definitely power.

But before that,let's just survive in living. Need financials for that. How can I make my family close to me, happily without worry with sufficient food on the table.

Reminded by my WSJ lecturer that stock playing is just like stealing, taking money from other people's loss. The next best thing is perhaps investments, on self and on others. But again, one need MONEY to invest. Or simply TIME, as that is the most precious thing God gave you.

Two and a half week to my next big step in life. I hope I can create time for myself and family and create value for the best of us.

May God bless us all

~Journey of the Heart, A travelling Body, A wandering Soul~

Pilihan Dalam Kehidupan~

Urat-urat tangan semakin jelas kelihatan,

Mata yang semakin membengkak,

Lopak-lopak di raut wajahnya,

Semua menandakan peningkatan usia.

Sepanjang tahun-tahun kehidupannya,

Pelbagai pilihan yang telah dibuatnya,

dan juga pilihan yang terpaksa akur dengannya,

Tidak kurang juga pilihan yang tiada pilihan lain.

Namun tidak diakui sepanjang masa yang telah berlalu itu,

Banyak pilihan yang telah melukai dan menghiris yang lain,

Cuma dengna harap belas yang kecil,

Moga segala dendam itu padam, dan ampunkan lah salah silap yang berlalu

Hey Little Heart~

Looking back to the past,

The scenes that made this heart tremble,

The wonderful feelings, the happiness, the sadness, the good, and the bad.

8 years back, if I had to do work this late, I am not alone,

I have at least 1/10 of the 163 guys to keep me entertain,

or perhaps just that two guys i hold so dear to me,

either way, that companionship sailed further and further away,

and looking for a new ship called relation is not easy.

13 years back, it was me picking up others,

pushing them to succeed together,

and hey look, they are now scattered and im proud of those once little rascal,

don't know if they still recognize me though.

21 years back, it was just both of us in our own world,

telling others to respect our belief in a Christian dominated country,

sharing our possessions and laugh,

not to forget that little hamster that bit everyone else except me,

and that pizza we made,

but distance really did put us a part.

Remember that day, back in London?

Remember my face greeting you? Remember that time?

Just before departing back to your good friends?

It was not the smile, not the scenes, neither your action.

It was the warmth of having someone by my side.

And that made my heart tremble...

What do I Want?

Times passes by and even blogs will get extinct
especially blogs like mine,
not organized, uninteresting and filled with personal stuffs
then again it always acts as a medium of expression
you dont get to express a lot in real life
especially coming from an egoistic person like me
i guess i am confused

I cant avoid this been read by anyone
and perhaps i do want some one to read this
and then comes the reaction
and hoping the reaction would be something i want

but a heart is always filled with games and puzzle
what does it really want
fame?
attention?
love?
acknowledgment?

ask yourself what in the end drives you
cz if you are me
at a point where things doesnt seem right
and you are faced with difficult decision
only one thing drives you through
what the heart truly desires

i can acknowledge myself
i have me loving myself and all the love i can get from my family
i can get attention by beeing the outgoing, noisy guy
i dont need fame cz if i do, i wld have been a model by now
so what do i want?
there's this one word that is not mentioned at all in this whole thing
find it and complete the missing link :)

Sejarah Lama

Kerana aku hidup di atas kejayaan lama

Melihat situasi itu memberiku seribu satu kenangan
menggamit memori masa silam
tatkala aku masih kecil berdiri

bakat itu terletak pd tgn insan
yg diberikan kebolehan
kurniaan Allah SWT

rajinnya insan melakukan persiapan
backdrop, pentas, dan persembahan
owh indahnya saat tiada keraguan
tiada kerisauan :)

Dan Mulut yang Bisa Menutur~

Andai dilihat di sudut hati
nescaya ada sesuatu yg dirasai, difikirkan
betul atau salah, belum pasti
lantas insan yg terdetik di kalbunya
membuka mata pena
pena yang berbeza
tidak berdakwat tp bertinta
tidak tajam malah lembut menghias bahasa
sang mulut yg hebat berkata

Diam!!!
jika tidak tahu, diam
jika tidak berilmu, diam
jika khuatir, ragu-ragu, diam
diam!!!

sesunggunya diam itu lebih baik dr berkata-kata sebegini

I Call Myself A Poison

I wear my specs and hide myself
my presence enough could spark problem
my presence enough could hurt a person
things might not seem so at first
but at one point you will understand
I, one who passionately do something
will always loose something in return